God I can't take this anymore
I can't do this on my own
I've tried to hold onto these little stains
The guilt and hurt drive me insane
God I can't do this anymore
If I'm made perfect in weakness
You've got a lot of work for sure
My way not yours is what I've said
Tryied to achieve your will with thoughts in my head
God I can't do this anymore
Holding onto what's left of me
When all the junk you can still see
All I desire is to be free
Humbly surrendered on blended knee
God I can't do this anymore
Take the "I" out of me
So not my will but Yours will I see
I'm surrendered!
Another original from me!
Friday, August 24, 2012
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Being Challenged
I love a good challenge.....usually on my own terms. As of late I have been challenged in just about every area of my life.
My walk with the Lord..... While this is the one area of my life that always remains the strongest it can sometimes be a challenge to remember that I am nothing without Him, when my own big fat head gets in the way.
My marriage.... Again this is usually one of the strongest areas of my life, but sometimes you get so caught up in things that you forget how much your spouse means to you and take them for granted which at times, yes I can even do that. I love my wife, and sometimes when stressed aggravated or just being consumed with activities can find it hard to show her or make her feel loved! So working on that.
My job...... I actually had to recently switch jobs yet again, due to a lack of income coming in from the job like it was specified I would receive. Wasn't exactly what I or my wife wanted, but financially it had to be done. It has cause quite a bit of stress on us both all around the board, but it should be better in a few weeks.
My kids...... I always try to make a special day of the week for them each week that we can just hang out. Whether a movie or just going somewhere and hanging out. This is one of the few things that I have kept up on. Plus I have been coaching my daughters soccer which has actually been quite enjoyable despite me despising soccer.
Youth Group..... A lot has been going on in this aspect of my life. There have been a lot of changes going on. Our Youth Pastor has resigned and is moving on to go plant another church. Steve and I are assuming the role of teaching. There have been many trials going on with the teens in our Youth Group that weigh heavy on my heart, and some days it takes all that one man can take not to allow it to consume them! Youth Camp is a short 2 and 1/2 months away, and I personally cannot wait to see what God does there to transform these kids! We will have like 15 first time Rush Campees! Cannot wait!
School..... I was a little worried that I was taking on too much with school, but after seeing this last week and experiencing what I have to look forward to I know that I am up for the task! I am confident that my choice of career path while still applies with Christian Ministry, but I am not 100% sure which of two paths I am taking yet! I have to very clear choices laid out in front of me, and I am personally leaning towards one than the other, but still praying and awaiting confirmation from God on which one He wants for me!
My walk with the Lord..... While this is the one area of my life that always remains the strongest it can sometimes be a challenge to remember that I am nothing without Him, when my own big fat head gets in the way.
My marriage.... Again this is usually one of the strongest areas of my life, but sometimes you get so caught up in things that you forget how much your spouse means to you and take them for granted which at times, yes I can even do that. I love my wife, and sometimes when stressed aggravated or just being consumed with activities can find it hard to show her or make her feel loved! So working on that.
My job...... I actually had to recently switch jobs yet again, due to a lack of income coming in from the job like it was specified I would receive. Wasn't exactly what I or my wife wanted, but financially it had to be done. It has cause quite a bit of stress on us both all around the board, but it should be better in a few weeks.
My kids...... I always try to make a special day of the week for them each week that we can just hang out. Whether a movie or just going somewhere and hanging out. This is one of the few things that I have kept up on. Plus I have been coaching my daughters soccer which has actually been quite enjoyable despite me despising soccer.
Youth Group..... A lot has been going on in this aspect of my life. There have been a lot of changes going on. Our Youth Pastor has resigned and is moving on to go plant another church. Steve and I are assuming the role of teaching. There have been many trials going on with the teens in our Youth Group that weigh heavy on my heart, and some days it takes all that one man can take not to allow it to consume them! Youth Camp is a short 2 and 1/2 months away, and I personally cannot wait to see what God does there to transform these kids! We will have like 15 first time Rush Campees! Cannot wait!
School..... I was a little worried that I was taking on too much with school, but after seeing this last week and experiencing what I have to look forward to I know that I am up for the task! I am confident that my choice of career path while still applies with Christian Ministry, but I am not 100% sure which of two paths I am taking yet! I have to very clear choices laid out in front of me, and I am personally leaning towards one than the other, but still praying and awaiting confirmation from God on which one He wants for me!
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